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A Little More about Yours Truly:

Talking about myself is one of my weaknesses. It has never been an easy task for me.

I'm Brandy. Yes, I'm aware that I share a name with an alcoholic beverage, and it is also "the code name" for the drug, Heroin. I was named after my grandfather. He called my mother, "Brandy", when she was little, so it was passed off to me -- as a "dedication". I've been in this lovely world for 21 years. There may be a lack of that -teen suffix, but I'm still a "kid at heart" sometimes.

Born and raised, living in the First State, located along the East Coast of the USA -- home of "greasy food", where everyone is apparently rich, fat, stuck up, and we lack political correctness. My opinion? We could do a lot better. Sure, "Dubya" is stupid (sure as hell, I'm counting down to the day he's out of office), our government is crappy, and we're overrated. Doesn't really say much. I can't really recall the last time, when I was proud of being an American. We would need about a countless number of years of having a good presidents, until we can even see a better tomorrow. Let's just face it... we're all doomed. There is a type of racism directed at every single type of person, and since our country has such great diversity, it only adds to it. The huge double standard on racism is, what I think, one of worst parts of being one of the unfortunate people living in our country. The discrimination sickens me. You can't even be gay, black, white, or any other race without hearing shit. Typical "Yankeeland". Before you ask, I'm certainly not fat, rich, or stuck up. *wink* I often dream of living in a different country/territory, such as Europe, or Australia. Of course, such misfortune, led me to be born in the USA. Such blessed luck!

I'm going with the flow of life, taking life as it comes -- trying to make it worth while. Unfortunately, I'm still stuck at home with Mom, and Dad, until I get my life straightened out. I'd love to get out of here as soon as possible. Living here is full of drama. There's barely a time, when we are getting along. Despite, I'm pretty family oriented. I finished High School in 2004. I wasn't as interested in furthering my education, as much as I am now. I often regret not going to college, while I had the opportunity. I've never been completely positive about what I've wanted to do with my life -- as of yet. I'm always changing my mind, and I'll never stick to one thing. I have a lot of goals, dreams, and aspirations. I have the desire to accomplish every one of them before the day I die. Currently, I'm holding down a career in retail. Isn't much, and I don't particularly enjoy it, but it's enough to support my financial situation for the time being. Leasurely, I enjoy spending time with friends, and anything involving computers, of course. I have a love for music -- honestly, it is my therapy. I love thunderstorms, and anything relating to weather.

I like to think of myself as being "independent", but unfortunately, I'm an only child, therefore my parents -- especially my Mom, solely focuses her attention on me, 24/7. I may be 21 years old, but I'm still treated as my reciprocal age, maybe even younger. I still live by strict rules (being bossed/pushed around), sometimes a curfew (bed times, etc), but I tend to push those out of the way, and try not to let them get to me. It takes a lot of disobeyment, and risk, but what else can I do? Sometimes, I even think of my room, as a jail cell, only without the black bars painted on the walls, even if I can't "technically" lock myself in without getting bitched at. *rolls eyes* However, I'll certainly and will always be "daddy's little girl". I can't really wait to get out of here.

You're an only child? Do your parents spoil you?: A typical stereotype, when associating an only child as being a hundred percent spoiled. I used to be (slightly), but being 21, becoming a working woman, I've grown financially independent. However, the 'rents are still there if I become stuck. We support each other. I might still live under the same roof, but I'm certainly not lazy -- most of the time.

Maybe I'm not the most attractive. So? I'm part Irish, and English, but I'm American by nationality -- considering I was born here. I look very young for my age. I'm a pale, white girl, with very fair skin. My eyes are blue, and I have dirty blonde hair. I stand somewhere between 5'1 - 5'2 (Irish blood). My weight won't be mentioned to an approximate, but I weigh anywhere between 110 to 115 lbs. My body type is somewhere in the "average" category. I was diagnosed with Congential Hypothyroidism (a pretty rare medical condition), when I was only a few days old. I've also suffered through three years of braces, jaw surgury (June 2003), and had a near deaf experience at age 7.

I'm a non smoker, but I drink casually. I'm still trying to find my place in this world. I've always been that type who can't seem to fit in -- that shy, small, quiet little "nerdy" girl. To be honest, I don't get out much. Seeing as I have very few friends (whom I see, and like me for me), and very low confidence. I just can't work up the courage to go out, meet people (though I enjoy making friends), go to parties, clubs, bars, etc. I'm up for it, but I never take the chance. I'm just afraid that I'm going to feel like I did, while in school... a "nobody" -- the girl everyone stares at, just because I'm "different". Perhaps, you could say that I'm a hermit.

I'm unique. I don't follow trends -- I have my own called, "whatever's comfortable". I am most definitely a t-shirt & jeans kind of girl. I have my ears pierced, but I'm getting my nose done (soon). I'm not inked, but I definitely plan on getting a tattoo soon -- already know what I want. I wear make up. Can't leave the house without it.

For those who know me, they can probably describe me as being kind, caring, friendly, funny, and meek (shy). I'm a Gemini, so I have multiple personalities. I have emotional moments every now and again. Generally, I'm a quiet, and very private person. I usually keep to myself. I've always had self confidence/esteem issues, and I'm very shy around people at first. I'm still working on coming out of my shell. However, I'm a different person, around friends. I know how to have fun, and I'm very animated. I've been told that I'm fun to be around, good to talk to, and I have a good sense of humor -- sometimes corny. I love to laugh. Never expect a dull moment, because when you become friends with me, consider me a friend for life. I'm very kind, helpful, loyal, laid back, and I enjoy listening. MY HEART IS BIGGER THEN MY BRAIN. I love all my friends to bits and love being around them. They all complete me. I care entirely too much for people && their well-being, and would go to the end of the world and back for those I love and care about most. I can also make your life Hell if you mess with them. Go ahead, and try me. Get on my bad side, and you won't see the end of it. I can be very argumentative. I believe in giving people 2nd chances [sometimes]. Unfortunately, I've lost quite a few friendships over the years. Some people seemed to believe that I was "too good for them", didn't like how I "spoke my mind", nor was I up for any fun, nor challenges (not that I wasn't). Most of them walked out of my life, and stopped contacting me for their own reasons. I've moved on, but it was their loss. I always try to make most of the time with the friends I have, and have learned to deal with loss.

I've never really discussed my passion for blogging, and web/graphic design with my "real life" friends and family. A few, figured it out, but I don't really prefer to talk about it. Perhaps, a few have stumbled upon, and read my entries occasionally, but I never heard anything, since they have yet to "delurk" themselves. I don't have a problem with it. It gives me a way of expressing myself in a different way. I've never really seen it was being "too nerdy" or embarressing, but something that I prefer to keep quiet.

This is a personal journal. I've come here to bore you with share my life story, and express myself. I stand up for what I believe in, rant, rave, talk about life, friends, family, music, and anything else on my mind. Without any self expression, there's no point in owning one. Enjoy!

I've endured more in 21 years of life than most have in a lifetime -- been through so much shit, but I'm still here, as strong as I was before. I like to enjoy everything for what it's worth. I'm happy to be here. I'm just a girl with huge aspirations, great friends, and I'm awesome. Not to mention, Justin Timberlake rocks my socks. Any questions?

If you'd like to know anything else, don't hesitate to ask, and all of that shebang.

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